sick...sigh..today got math test de leh...haha.. ok...singlish...argh!! okok...so im sick...yea...later going to school to take math test...so gotta study now..heex...chaoz

[s.c.h.o.o.l]

bored. i was so zi dong today i studied.

today was a damned day man. wonder whats wrong today. this year. parents nag nag nag shit la. whatever lor. yah. feel so wrongED!! everythings my fault!! fine...whatever...no mood to blog alr..blog a long one tml..haha...

getting so depressed. sigh. today is his last day in singapore already. leavin tmr..sigh.. wanna meet..but dunno where each other went. i feel so lost.

[i will remember you]

just came back from prefects rod. yea. our dance screwed up lor. i mean its like horrid..worse than the practices. nervous i guess..everyone looked so nice!!! angela was so pretty..sarah too!! even amie..haha..all the sec 4s were like so nice...jealous...haha..and then some of us so toot looking..ahha...and i thot i wore like an indian!?!? ahahaa... yea.. oh well heckk it. haha, yea was so bloody fun and thats it man. shucks he;s leaving. the sec4s are leaving...daMN...everyone is leaving!! ok,sad.

[will missssssss all of u guys!]
and the dance prac too.

everyone is bpa valenti rawked!!

sigh..today was his so called last day alr..sigh...so damn freakin sad lor. i cried a little haha. yah. and i was lyk so sad and din wanna talk. mentally unstabled. haha. at least i smashed the cake on his face yea. i din wanna cry out loud cuz i know its not good to cry. its a happy thing not a sad one. so yah. held back my tears. ok. tml i think imm gonna cry lyk crazy lor. last day..and stuff. haix. ok. had a celebration for him. and i walked arnd in my blue hair. hahaz! no one caught me!! whee..ok im sad yah. bye

to him: good luck in australia. dont slack ok? haha. and dont forget us in singapore!!

[dont wanna let you go]
but do i have a choice?
[ill cry in the dark]
ill keep you in my prayers

haiya he's leavin in lyk what 3 days huh ok. sad. today went to take neos. so nice!! except the firstg machine where we forgot to choose the pose.that sucked. ok ya. the second machine was so bloody nice lor. yah. ok. gonna miss him like siao. and all,haha. lucky meeting on sat. pass sth den go le. yah. ok. im so saD?? why shld i be? i wish..i wish..

shucks this whole week din go tution. suck. have to repay dunno how many lessons so yup. gna die ever so badly man! haha ok.

[im gonna miss you i know i know]
[words cant explain yea]

ok. i feel so blur ya. ok. supposed to do the damn history! argh. dance here and there and this whole week dance agaiN its drivin me crazy!! maybe thats why im so blur. you'll feel irritated talking to me man ok not free bye
 
[i hate you?]

ok lyk waddahell. i juz typed a damn bloody long entry and it got deleted. shit the com whattever. now i gotta retype it all out again and shit it'll be so short. ok so i was sayin lavina was missing for 2 hours. funny...not! okies..everyone so worried and all. stupid gal!! argh.. i hate this com. i hate retyping it all out again. ystd night was the ndp premier lyk waddahell. my brother misssed it for  a damn stupid award i mean its lyk why is he so guai to listen??? haha... i heck it.. its lyk a chance...hard to come by. okies. shit i thought he could tell me about the ndp b4 i leave...sigh.. cuz i'll be away. damn it. okies. okies. the ndp fireworks were like damn nice. last yr there were no shapes and all but this year they had playing saucers...stars and even a deer! yea. okies. since i wont be here during national day..SOMEONE KIND OUT THERE WHO CAN HELP ME TAPE IT PLEASE HELP ME!! take it as i'm beggin you. pleasseE?? i dont wanna miss it. damn! im gonna miss the fireworks .."flyin peeps" and all on the actual day man! darn it! cuz from my house..you can c whats happening. as in go to the rooftop kinda thing.. yea. okie. i din noe what i typed out nxt oh well make sure i dont delete this entry man god.! haha. and i actually reyped it. oh yea! i noe tht the bag is a sling bag. okie. gosh!! i cant wait to go to sABbAh with my whole family its lyk generations are going so it'll be so cool and fun. leavina spore bout 4 am, yupp. heE! and i get to miss one day of school! =PppppPp 
 
[feeling all mixed up again]
sigh why r u doing this to me?
i offended you?
 

juz came back from guides...haha...today was lyk so farnie...tht gena!!! argh!! makin me laugh all the time then shu fen was so mad at me tht lyk she shouted and shouted. den it was lyk not my fault. not fair!! oh well yupp..den i couldnt stand it so i squat down and laugh lyk big time.hahahaha,. so embarrassing. oh okie talk abt friday...was so cool. learn almost the whole dance. den after tht stayed back to watch the pe capts play heee... with cheryl and candy and lavina..haha...and and and..so wuliao. yeaa...was so fun we lyk practically laughed the whole way. haha. ok..forgotten all my sorrows and problems are settled. so right now im leadin a pathetically freakin fun life without boys.
 
[so darn happy]
[f.r.i.e.n.d.s]

one question rings in my mind. did he play with my feelings? if he did. he suck. i hate tis kind of guys lor. they really are hateful and the best part... he... haix. cant say here, oh well! im quit. i wont have any association with guys until im 17. my fren is right. no guy is ever truely true. they uz are fickle. they go for looks and all. they juz suck. and no guy can ever fully understand how a gal feels when he jumps.ok. i can accept the fact that she is better than me. so i shall forget you and leave the past behind. leave... leave to a far away land i wont give a damn. to think i trusted you so much. and can YOU stop being the third party? sucks.. i mean its like. suddenly i feel youre gonee.

[you played with my heart]
and i hate you for that

haix. bad news. he's migrating. waddahell. all the bad things always fall on me. am i really so unlucky? or iz this retribution from my past life. those whom i care for has left me. and more to cum. haiz. this world of mine isnt revolving around me. my fren said i have to be selfish. but i didnt. and things worked out worse. i dunno exactly wheather i'll be missing you or not. your jokes. laughter. its just hard to forget such a sweet guy lyk u. oh well! you're not dead so..i guess things will be fine yea? its lyk...I'LL CRY!

[sad to let go]

forgot to add..musical was so damn fun (friday) ahaha...nvr will forget. ahaha.. bez part.. to c people and what they were wearin

[mixed]

back blogging. wha!!!! juz came back from NGEE ANN CAMFIRE..it totally RAWKS..really. oh mans..was screamin my lungs out. we were very enthu ok..haha.. yup it was a BIG BIG campfire man. the gate way was so huge i counted 33 schs went but sum lyk scout and guides from same sch. so i dunno how many then. yahz. the biggest campfire i went to i think and its so lonngg...so interesting! there was break dance ok..! head spin all these oh man so cool. ahaha.. din c any cute guys. oh ya! best part. the teachers didnt go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that was the best man, best ever. nvr ever imagined. ahaha. yup. then was lyk a pop concert lyk daT lor. so nice. even the peeps tht were biking stopped at the fence to watch. and there was this guy from the block there watching! big thing ok.. haha yupp.. so so so so tired now. ahah. screamin so much makes u tired noe., ha. yup. my eye lids are closing so i shall take my leave now bye!

those peeps who dun noe anything bout cfs...shut up! haha. jkjk

[missing you]
[campfires rawk my world]

juz came back from sch. had prefects meeting again. hee. we r doing a dance by BoA haha. think should be very nice lor. it better be mans. haha. my couz gonna be so jealous. he's a great fan of boA haha. hmm. switched bags with cheryl goh. lavina switched bag with cheryl. cuz of the handphone thing. haha. yupp. haha. ok cool. den oh ya! cheryl and candy switched to our grp yay! haha. musical coming! yay! yay! haha. gonna be like so fun lor right. yupp. going to do the dance thing liao bye

[youre still the one i love]

slept so many times today!! haha. my body cant take the stress im havin on me hee. studied today! (guaiix) haha. oh yea. muz wear more black blue and grey. gud for me. and cannot have stead. cannot talk to strangers. cannot go out at nite. muz obey muz muz muz obey! ok im crapz..today was lyk a pig. slept 4 times. ok .bye.

[im disappointed in you]

i juz woke up from a damn freakening 45 min nap. shit. i hate the dream i had can. it was lyk i kanna kidnapped lor. haiz..why do i have to have such dreams...the last thing i rmb b4 i slept was the flowers on my mums bedsheet. a few pink wand white ones. lyk the jap flower tht kind.yup. and it was so real cuz the starting of the dream was i had difficulties waking up.my eye was reallie pain and cant open for lyk 10 mins or wad. den was so detailed tht i knew the address of the place i was kidnapped at! wad de hell right, yah. it was 139 dunno wad rd. they kidnapped alotta gals lor n all of them seemed to be happy bout tht even my cousin. sigh. then i rmbered i saw a ghost or sth?? yah. ok. den i made a fren there. she was the gal i saw tht time. my mum knew her mum. but i never knew her. yah. then i rmbered i had a hp. yah. then wanted to call my mum but then they changed my sim card to thai sim card. then for local calls only then she lent me hers but it wwas like so hard to use haha. then whatever they wanted they could have. wha. but so sad. i was gonna cry then i woke up. the last scene in my dream was i staring at the hp lor. haix. i even knew the address..cant believe it!

[scaredd]

sitting here thinking bout what am i gonna do bout my life..haiz..everythin seems so perfect but yet still not perfect..everytime i see him..i would think bout things..haiz..juz feel so..dunno to explain lorz..why did i let a guy dominate my heart..guys are juz freaks man..not sayin all but yea..juz dont like them arnd..esp him..hate it hate it! he likes.** actually lor..he is juz cheatin on my feelings to dominate his lost feelings that tyme..haiz [you juz made me feel like a fool] so stressed up with school..its like theres not enuff time can..hai...ok..gtg change for my dinner nowx...yupp so chaoz!!

[i dont like the way you cheated me]

hey juz woke up..feeliin so tired every single day..haixx..went out with yvonee and zheng yi..was great!! was lookin for tht stupid clothes..ahha..maybe ill juz wear tht black and red thingy lor..i tried a dress..made me look so..ee..shrugs..haha..ok..dat zhong lau shi very idiotic lor. ask me to redo the thing..jian bao...she think very easy izzit..lucky is onli cut and paste or ill die ever so badly..hahax. yupp...was fun lah..haix..my heart full of problems..dunno why..cannot forget sth...sth tht i should forget..tt guy is lyk playing with my heart..siaox..i juz cant believe i actually believed him okay..i was such a fool..its still better to have a "clear" heart..liking anyone at my age now..its juz ..stupid.

[i thought i could trust you]